My Day, My Night, and My Thoughts of The Future

Today is a day that the Lord has made. Today has been for the most part, without taking away from God, just another day. I had today off from the church. I guess the rule is if a Holiday falls on a day off they take a day off latter in the week so since memorial day was on Monday and Monday is always a day off we got Friday off. Hope that makes since. any way, Today i decided to sleep in till about 11:00. it was quite nice and probably needed even though i feel like taking one right now. I got up and decided to sit in the living room and read (The Barbarian Way, by Erwin Raphael McManus) when my "grandma" came in and asked if I would like to go with them to run a Eran and go to a place that has sea food. If you know me much i am always up for food and even more so when its free(I'm going to be so spoiled!). After getting around and reading some more we took off and went to the restaurant "Sea Island" and ate. it was very good I got shrimp and fish it was delish(did you like that rhyme?). after lunch came one of my highlights of the day and that was being lost with locals haha... its always such a comforting thing! but we made our way to and from and finally reached home where I had a conversation with a lovely lady and did some more reading. once dinner time came my "grandparents" invited me over for dinner which consisted of veggies and dip and a little left over chicken. "Grandpa" and I then proceeded to talk a little politics for quite some time. Now, Finlay, I find myself alone. a place that I rarely enjoy with much passion. its hard for me sometimes. I know that its good and I know need Independence and for the most part I know when I need to be alone, but I enjoy company. Company that I Enjoy. this is my last night alone in this part of the house. tomorrow sometime the rest of the family will be arriving back home. You might think that I am looking forward to this and in many ways I really and truly am BUT there is something about being alone in this house that in a way makes it feel like mine. I love having to myself, I love sitting at night on the couch or in the chair and reading a book. there is something missing though. my "home" is empty. I cant wait for the day that i am able to share a home with my wife and at some point kids. I get lonely and with my relationship with the Lord i know that I just need to be Obedient and Patient and look to Him to fill that void, but this is where my heart is. desiring to share my life. As I now snap out of my dream world and face the reality of tomorrow I realize that things are not going to be that way. I will no longer have "my space" (that was never mine to start with) but instead I will have to share it and live amongst these new people. I know God is going to use these people to strengthen me and help me to learn but its a hard truth to come to grips with at the moment. God is Good and I am truly excited to meet them and to learn from them and see what God has in store.