As you look at where you are right now, as I look at where I am right now, its seen as clearly not fair. Yes, I am extremely grateful for the comfortable life I live but its not fair. I didn't ask to be born in America, further more I didn't ask to be born by parents who care for me, I didn't even ask to be born into a home with which I eat three meals a day and on to of that am able to receive good education. These are all things that I have taken for granted for too long.
I have taken advantage of the material positions, shelter, bed, and the list could go on for ever. So why me? Why have I Shane McNeeley been given the life I have been given, out of all the billions of people in this world, why me? Now, there is the obvious and true answer that most people at my little christian college would give me and that is that God created me with a purpose and that he is going to use me to further his kingdom..... but that still doesn't make it fair!
Why have I been brought into a life where I eat plentiful and have the ability to eat when ever I want, to go to a water faucet and drink straight from the tap? Of course that's because I live in one of the most developed countries in the world. But its still not fair! Daily I take for granted the education I have received and am still receiving. This goes back to living with parents that love me dearly and desire me to receive higher education and help me fit the bill. But none the less its still NOT FAIR!
This is not the first time these thoughts have crossed my mind but it is now that I have been pressed to write about it. Over the past few years I have been trying to relinquish as many commodities that I can. Even the thought of going to a third world country and leaving most of my positions makes me feel like I'm doing a service to those that don't have what I have but the fact of the matter is, that I am still rich. I cant run away from my wealth because no matter where I go I still have so many people who love and care for me and with a simple phone call or email I could have the ability to be right back in my comfortable life style. I cant hide from it I cant leave it its something I must own. And.... you know what? its not fair!
Like I had said before I am very grateful for what I have, for the people I have in my life, for the support I have from the body of Christ, and for all the comfortable commodities that I have. I just struggle so much and its so hard to look at the rest of the world and see the pain, hurt, and poor that have been flooded with the simple but daunting task to stay alive and make it through the day they have been given.
With that I have a decision to make. That decision deals with the fact that I have been given this opportunity and this life to live, and to make the most of it. Its clear to me that I have been gifted by God and He does have a specific plan for my life, but its my decision to use this life for good or for bad. With that said I cry out for grace, I know that I will fall short many times through out this life and grace will be required. I also want to vow to make the most of this life but not for myself and to lift myself up but for those with whom its not fair. I will not neglect the riches I have nor will I neglect the hurting and poor around the world but utilize the riches I have to help these people, my brothers and sister, that God puts in my life.
I will live my life out loud, even if its not fair!
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