Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Life In and After Haiti

I didn’t really know what to expect. All I knew to believe is was what I had heard and saw from different the media sources that piled up around me. I knew that this was a time of need and that God had a plan, a plan that would soon involve me. We made our way through the many discouraging obstacles that laid in our path and finally stepped foot into a world totally different from our own. We made our way through the pole barn that they called customs and baggage claims to reach the large crowd that stood desperately wanting to help any of us “rich people” with our bags simply to make a buck or two. It was at this moment that we knew without a shadow of a doubt that we were in Haiti.

The trip was full of unknowns and speculations about what would seen and experienced. With many ideas cycling through our minds it was clear that until we saw, experienced, and came face to face with the effects of the earthquake and life as it is now and before the devastation in Haiti, we would never be able to grasp the magnitude of the situation in this country. We were only there for a week but this week was meant to challenge every part of who we were. We called home a hot and humid building and laid our head to rest at night on foam mattress within a compound in the town of Pierre Payen. At first there were not huge life changing tasks on the path in front of us and we learned to find peace in the small and mundane tasks that we were directed to complete. Tasks such as fixing a ceiling in our room and painting the walls of a couple offices. Through the mundane we still were able to find peace in knowing that we were loosening the load of others and furthering the kingdom of God even if it was in the most minuet way. But our work did not stop at painting and repairing nor were we about to stop there. After the normal 8:30am to 5:00pm days at the compound we entered into relationship with the Haitian people and what a joy that was. We visited orphanages and played with the kids, we played soccer and goofed around with the kids on the street and around our compound, and eventually handed out rice and assisted in well repairs throughout tent cities and different parts of Port-au-prince. Even though our languages did not mix and we learned a limited vocabulary such as, “Hello, how are you” “what’s your name” and a few simple words like “thank you” and “you’re welcome” in their native language Creole, we were able to communicate and find pleasure in the things that are universal. It was beautiful to see and experience the simple things in life that we so often take for granted like a smile, a hug, and a laugh that break down the walls that cage us in. Although it was very frustrating not being able to communicate to our new friends, we knew simply by the look in their eyes how they felt and I think that they could see it in our eyes as well.












Life in Haiti is different than ours in the United States of America. With Haiti being the poorest country in the western hemisphere you can imagine that we in America have absolutely no clue what life there is like for the Haitian people, not even myself after being there can truly fathom the life of a Haitian. Even with minimal resources and with all the odds staked against the people they persevere, exemplifying resiliency like none I have seen. The Haitian people work hard at making food, retrieving water, taking care of their children, and trying to make ends meat in any way they can, which was beautiful and heart wrenching at the same time.


Our time was mostly spent in and around Pierre Payen, which suffered very minimal damage from the earthquake, but there were a couple days spent in Port-au-prince. This city has been hit hard, with some buildings pan caked and others with devastating structural damage but the most shocking element is the number of people displaced from their homes, forced to live in makeshift tents or tents supplied from a few groups, and tarp covered huts. These people were in need of food and water proof shelter. Our senses we heightened as we drove through this city. Our eyes were drawn to spaces filled with tents or tarp homes, collapsed buildings and beautiful children and people waving and continuing on in their normal day to day manner much different from our own. Our noses locked onto the smell of burning trash and plastic, food cooking on the side of the street, and different unidentifiable odors that I would just assume leave unidentified. Sounds floated through the air in a screaming manner, horns blasting (from an American view for no reason), kids laughing, playing, and trying to speak to us in Creole, and many people asking for food and handouts from the white people in the back of the truck. Your skin could feel the heat and humidity in the air, with dust sticking to the perspiration that covered your body. And our mouths were dry and our thirst was quenched by different flavored pops or water from a bag. There were few times that our senses were not on active duty, which is another element that made this experience life changing.


It didn’t take long for us to realize that life was different for the Haitian people compared to our own. Nor did it take long to see the resilience and happiness that they had even in the worst of circumstances. Every part of Haiti touched and tore at our hearts transforming our world view causing us to see life in America through new lenses. Now, as I anxiously wait to once again return to the beautiful people and beautiful country of Haiti I can only tell others about my experience and close my eyes and remember the faces gratitude and joy that grip my heart.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Its Not Fair!

As you look at where you are right now, as I look at where I am right now, its seen as clearly not fair. Yes, I am extremely grateful for the comfortable life I live but its not fair. I didn't ask to be born in America, further more I didn't ask to be born by parents who care for me, I didn't even ask to be born into a home with which I eat three meals a day and on to of that am able to receive good education. These are all things that I have taken for granted for too long.

I have taken advantage of the material positions, shelter, bed, and the list could go on for ever. So why me? Why have I Shane McNeeley been given the life I have been given, out of all the billions of people in this world, why me? Now, there is the obvious and true answer that most people at my little christian college would give me and that is that God created me with a purpose and that he is going to use me to further his kingdom..... but that still doesn't make it fair!

Why have I been brought into a life where I eat plentiful and have the ability to eat when ever I want, to go to a water faucet and drink straight from the tap? Of course that's because I live in one of the most developed countries in the world. But its still not fair! Daily I take for granted the education I have received and am still receiving. This goes back to living with parents that love me dearly and desire me to receive higher education and help me fit the bill. But none the less its still NOT FAIR!

This is not the first time these thoughts have crossed my mind but it is now that I have been pressed to write about it. Over the past few years I have been trying to relinquish as many commodities that I can. Even the thought of going to a third world country and leaving most of my positions makes me feel like I'm doing a service to those that don't have what I have but the fact of the matter is, that I am still rich. I cant run away from my wealth because no matter where I go I still have so many people who love and care for me and with a simple phone call or email I could have the ability to be right back in my comfortable life style. I cant hide from it I cant leave it its something I must own. And.... you know what? its not fair!

Like I had said before I am very grateful for what I have, for the people I have in my life, for the support I have from the body of Christ, and for all the comfortable commodities that I have. I just struggle so much and its so hard to look at the rest of the world and see the pain, hurt, and poor that have been flooded with the simple but daunting task to stay alive and make it through the day they have been given.

With that I have a decision to make. That decision deals with the fact that I have been given this opportunity and this life to live, and to make the most of it. Its clear to me that I have been gifted by God and He does have a specific plan for my life, but its my decision to use this life for good or for bad. With that said I cry out for grace, I know that I will fall short many times through out this life and grace will be required. I also want to vow to make the most of this life but not for myself and to lift myself up but for those with whom its not fair. I will not neglect the riches I have nor will I neglect the hurting and poor around the world but utilize the riches I have to help these people, my brothers and sister, that God puts in my life.

I will live my life out loud, even if its not fair!